Changes.

WTF. I had totally forgotten about this old thing. The only reason I came back was because I was starting up a different blog and suddenly remembered I still had this one. Dang. I just went back and re-read through all my old posts as a teenager and almost couldn't believe it. I started this blog FIVE FREAKING YEARS AGO (albeit, it hasn't been updated for the past 2 years).

Couldn't help but noticed that so much has changed.

I look at myself now and wonder, what happened to that awkward girl who just loved books? That girl that suffered with so much depression throughout her teenage years? That girl who spent so much time sitting in her room and crying all the time? All of that is a mere memory now.

And I know that relatively, a few years isn't really that long. Granted, I am still a bit awkward and my love of books is still somewhat there (when I actually have the time to spend reading them). But still, I have come a very long way. So, a few updates of my life, just for this old blog's sake......

You already know that I'm in college now. I will be entering my third year, and about to apply to be a doctoral candidate (PharmD to be exact). Planning to apply to pharmacy school in the fall; I'm super excited and super nervous at the same time. I work pretty much full time while also going to school, but still somehow managed to squeeze in time for my sanity. Sometimes. My grades are not too great, but my resume is spectacular. I drive my own car and pay all the expenses for it. I am almost completely financially independent (except for the tuition part, which my parents pay). I do whatever I want and nobody can tell me that I can't do it.

But most importantly, I am a well grounded young woman. I'm learning something new every day and this thirst for learning and knowledge is not going to be quenched any time soon (which I guess makes it a good thing that I'll be in school seemingly forever). I have no limits; I'm open minded, and my foundation is sturdy.

And I am so proud of who I am and what I've become (and what I will be).

And if only that 16-year-old me knew, even a little bit, of what I am now, I imagine she would be proud of me too.

Not that I am successful in life, but that I have a firm foundation and I know who I am. And I won't take crap from anyone who says otherwise.

Who knew that the awkward, depressed girl would turn out this way? I didn't. If I could go back as myself now, I would tell her that things would get a lot better for her. And over the next few years she would experience so much growth and maturity. I still can't believe those were my posts that I just read through.

Even though I am who I am now, there is still that small part of me that is embodied in this past. I can't forget it, and that sad girl is still a part of who I am. What an unexpected nostalgic surprise, stumbling across this blog again.

Dude. College.

Yes. I am officially a college student. There are a lot of things I could say in this entry. But I won't. I don't know what to say here anymore that won't end up as a giant ramble. Sigh. Whatever good things and whatever struggles I have I now keep to myself. Maybe that's why this blog is so neglected now.

THE END OF A BEGINNING

oh dear. I have completely forgotten about this blog. All the things I wrote about before seems like forever ago. Anyway, summer for me has been in for about half a month. I officially graduated high school and am leaving my childhood behind me as I head off to college in the fall. Wow. It still blows my mind if I think about it that way. There's a whole lot I would like to say but don't really feel like saying it.

Sorry....

I haven't quite forgotten you, the truth is I was just way too lazy to write. I have a snow day today (yes!). It's quite a bit of snow although it can't be compared to last year's snow blizzard. I already shoveled it last night though since our power went out and I had nothing else to do. It's back on now thank goodness, but last night we had no heat and I was freezing. Oh, and second semester started, but we've only gone to school for one day since the first day. So that's my update. See ya.

turkey day

it's been a while. sorry. senior year is alright, but i'm starting to get a little depressed again. maybe it's the weather. it's almost thanksgiving and i wanna eat lots of food. i probably shouldn't be so excited though, because something is bound to go wrong.

Back to Old Books

this is how I'm choosing to spend the last week of my summer....being so bored that I take out old books and read them. Last night I started re-reading A Deadly Game of Magic by Joan Lowery Nixon, which I haven't read since probably middle school. I can't believe it - that book still gives me the creeps when I read it. I like it though. And I also kind of like rediscovering old books and movies, which is something I've done a lot this summer because I've been so bored.

1 more week TT_TT

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

school starts in a week. Where has my summer gone?!!?!? oh well. Senior year. I don't want it to end, but then again I don't want to stay in school for the rest of my life. I'm just scared of leaving everything behind when I go to college :(